It's so strange to be living fully in the present, but knowing that
in a few, short months I will be on theWorld Race
again. Once again, I will be walking foreign streets, with young
people bold enough to leave all they have for the sake of
bringing hope, healing, and the gospel to the nations. Thank you
Jesus! : ) I am so excited!
I will be leading F-Squad for
the first 4 months of their race. I will be traveling to India,
Nepal, Thailand, and a country in Asia not yet disclosed.
India
With nearly a sixth of the world's population within its borders,
India is a country bursting with people and culture. Home to a diverse
array of beliefs from Hinduism to Islam, to a blend of folk religions
and other faiths, it is a country of pluralism with twenty-nine
languages spoken by over a million native speakers, multiple religions,
cuisine, socio-economic classes, and political parties. India's
struggles with poverty and crimes of human trafficking, forced
prostitution, religious persecution, and more. You might work with local
churches to encourage believers and most likely be challenged by their
testimonies. Your presence'll bring hope and truth to those that society
deems "untouchable."
Nepal
Home to Mount Everest, the world's tallest mountain, Nepal literally
sits on top of the world. In addition to adventurous experiences you
will have here, you may also visit widows and orphans in their times of
distress and protect the innocent who are prey to human traffickers.
This month of your World Race experience will submerge you in a culture
that is desperate for an encounter with the living God.
Thailand
According to the CIA, the kingdom of Thailand, known as Siam until
1939, is the only country in the region not colonized by Europe. Their
2000 census showed that 94.6% of the population is Buddhist, 4.6% are
Muslim, and 0.7% are Christian. Approximately 600,000 people live with
HIV/AIDS in Thailand. With nearly two million people estimated to be
forced into prostitution, it has become one of the most popular places
for sex tourism. Change lives in the city-where you, like Jesus, might
befriend prostitutes-or in the countryside-where you may serve youth,
care for orphans, and encourage a remnant of believers.
Challenge: Asia
Blaze a trail for your team and future World Racers. This will be the
opportunity for you to continue flexing your faith muscles as you
depend on a few words of advice from the staff and mostly God's
guidance. With God, all things are possible and the possibilities are
endless.
My co-leader is Joel Dutton. His
role is to be there for the men on our squad...and we have a lot of
them! Thank you God for Joel : )I just know he is going to call
these meninto greatness. After our third month on
the field, Joel and I will choose new squad leaders, from within the
squad, to continue leading the group for the remaining 7 months.
Please join me in praying for
F-Squad! Please pray for:
Traveling mercies and favor
Provision in full measure
Healing/Transformation/Deliverance
Deeper relationship with the
Father
Wholeness over their hearts
Health and Protection
Perseverance and Endurance
Hearts and Minds set on things
above
Ability to embrace all that God
wants to do in them and through them
Our squad is going out into these
nations to bring light and hope to places that persecute and kill
Christian believers, traffic women and children for forced
prostitution, and face extreme poverty. They will come face-to-face
with distressed orphans and widows, encounter people with aids and
other diseases and illnesses, and be in places where child sacrifice
is prevalent. They need people back in the States to lift them up in
prayer and cover them.
I feel so honored to be a part of
this journey along-side them, but I can't do this alone. I not
only need you to stand in the gap for us in prayer, but I also
need your help financially. As a squad leader, I need to raise
money to cover the cost of my plane tickets leaving the states and
coming back, and my plane tickets to and from the 8 month debrief and
the final debrief. The total cost needed is $5,700. The
break-up of the cost is as follows:
To donate: Please
click to the left of the page where it says "CLICK
HERE TO DONATE...thank you for your support."
Thank you for your generosity and
for your obedience to the Lord. May He bless you abundantly for
blessing me, and allowing me to lead this radical group of young
believers to the nations.
The most important thing for me as a kid was to have time to be outside and daydream.
I still like to do that : )
I finally gave myself a chance to grieve, that I was no longer in Georgia, surrounded by an amazing community of people that "get me". Now, I have really started to enjoy being home.
I feel like a kid again!
I love hanging out by the pool, laying in the sun, and watching the shape of the clouds.
I lovebeing silly with my little sister...breaking out into random songs and dances just because it's fun.
I love going for long walks and daydreaming about life.
What's changed?
TRUST
I am confident when the time is right...doors will open and all will be revealed.
In the meantime....I am going to enjoy being a kid....His kid.
Have you ever seen the movie Groundhog Day, where Bill Murray wakes up to the same day over and over again?
I feel like that is my life right now.
I wake up, check my email, have some quiet time with the Lord, play with my 7 year old sister, laugh with my dad, and wait...and wait.....and wait.
I have no other choice but to believe that God is moving in the unseen, and that He will show up. It would be silly for me not to think this way, because He has proven that this is how He works, time and time again.
Sometimes I feel like I want to jump out of my skin, just to feel something different...to make something happen.
However, how would that solve my problem? And is that was this is... a problem? Or is this the mercy of God?
My time in Georgia was a season of preparation...for what I don't exactly know yet. Hahaha! My time in Florida is a season of recovery (which I dislike to admit that I need, but I so do). The next season that I walk into...is a season of entering into my destiny.
I am so excited for what lies ahead...mostly because it is such a mystery. I guess that's why it makes this season of zero productivity and movement so challenging. I just pray that I can be thankful for the special grace and the beauty that comes from recovery. I pray that I would look at it from the right perspective....that God is always good and He wants what is highest for me.
Thank you for continuing to follow my blogs, even in the midst of changes and transition.
I have officially moved to Miami, Florida, 3 days ago. I was so confident when I left Gainesville, and excited for the new things that are in store for me. Once I got here though, those feelings changed. I was faced with reality....no community, no friends, no church, no job, and no car to explore around andmeet new people. God is really going to have to intervene here. How am I supposed to get plugged in to a community of believers and new friends, if I can't even leave the house?
I started the Daniel Fast, on February 4th. It has been really good so far. I am hoping that once this fast is over, in 18 more days, then I will have some kind of breakthrough. I am doing the fast for several reasons.
To cleanse myself from my horrible eating habits in Georgia.
I really felt the Lord pressing it on my heart to do this fast.
Hoping this will help me keep my eyes on the Lord, in a time when it seems really easy to give up.
I have been reading in the book of Hebrews.
1-3For as long, then, as that promise of resting in him pulls us on to God's goal for us, we need to be careful that we're not disqualified. We received the same promises as those people in the wilderness, but the promises didn't do them a bit of good because they didn't receive the promises with faith. If we believe, though, we'll experience that state of resting.
I need to rest in my Father, by leaving what is behind and what is to come in His hands. If I fully trust Him, then I am able to rest in Him. I can be confident that He will be the one to pull down the walls and open the doors in my path.
I want to thank you for supporting me with encouraging
words, prayers, and love. Ever since I came off of the World Race, my life has
been one roller coaster ride after another. First I spent 4 months in Africa
then I felt like I was supposed to go to Thailand for 2 years. God really spoke
to my heart, and I knew that I wasn't passionate about working with Burmese child
soldiers. I felt like God wanted me to
serve Him out of passion and not out of a place of religion. Then God made a
way for me to do the apprenticeship in October. I had the funds I needed to
serve in the office and help get others on the World Race. I also got to be a
part of an incredible community and church, relationships have been formed that
I will forever be a part of. I am so thankful for the time that I have spent
here!
The original plan was to continue my time here, and work
with the American Indian Missions Department, as I had stated in my last
newsletter. However, the course of events has changed once again. I love how
God works, and I love how when you live for Him, there is never a dull moment.
Most of you probably didn't know this, but my support account has been
completely drained. I have been working at the office for free, and have missed
3 paychecks. God has miraculously provided money for all of my bills and an
abundance of food. However, He has made it clear that my season in Georgia is
finished and it's time for me to return home. Once I embraced this decision,
the turmoil that I felt I was swirling in, has stopped. I once again feel
peace.....
I will be finishing out this month helping out in the office,
and I will be heading home to Miami, Florida the first week of February. I have
no idea what this next season has in store, but I am really excited to find
out. The plan, for now, is to spend some time resting and getting back to
health. I want to continue to pursue working with Native Americans, but I also
want to go back to teaching. So God-willing, I will be able to do both by
getting a teaching job on the Seminole Indian Reservation.
I ask that you would continue to keep me in prayer. Please
pray for doors to open up and that I would embrace each day of this season.
Thank you again for being such a strong support system for me, and please know
that I am always thinking of you.
I sat down, locked myself in my room, and had a heart-to-heart with the Father. He revealed the truth of my situation, and gave me a fresh perspective....
Combustion isn't a bad thing.
Zechariah 13:9:
I will bring that group through the fire and make them pure. I will
refine them like silver and purify them like gold. They will call on my
name, and I will answer them. I will say, 'These are my people,' and
they will say, 'The LORD is our God.'
I am walking through the fire, and this flame is not on the surface level, like it was when I was on the Race. This combustion is taking place in the very depths of my being. Why? Because that is where my desire lays, and He is purifying my desire.
Being in the wilderness isn't a bad thing.
I recently listened to a sermon called Manifestations and Hiddenness by Graham Cooke. He said "God takes you to the wilderness when He is happy with you. In the wild, Jesus learnedhow to overcome the enemy and Himself. He came out of the wilderness in the power of the Holy Spirit. "
Spiritual Warfare isn't a bad thing.
2 Kings 6:16
"Don't be afraid!" Elisha told him. "For there are more on our side than on theirs!"
God showed me a glimpse of what was taking place in the spiritual realm, on my behalf. He showed me angels being obedient to the Father and risking themselves for me. Then He showed me, sitting at my desk at work, throwing a pity party and crying. He said to me "Just say thank you. This is all for you.." Not only does He fight my battles for me, but then He rewards me with good things. How undeserving of His love we are, yet He lavishes us with it.
Hiddenness isn't a bad thing.
Luke 24:13-16
13 Now that same day two of them were going to a village called Emmaus, about seven miles[a] from Jerusalem. 14 They were talking with each other about everything that had happened. 15As they talked and discussed these things with each other, Jesus himself came up and walked along with them; 16 but they were kept from recognizing him.
Luke 24:30-32
30 When he was at the table with them, he took bread, gave thanks, broke it and began to give it to them. 31Then their eyeswere opened and they recognized him, and he disappeared from their sight.32
They asked each other, "Were not our hearts burning within us while he
talked with us on the road and opened the Scriptures to us?"
Hiddenness is about a season of revelation. God sometimes has to disconnect Himself emotionally, although He never leaves me, so He can reveal more of Himself to my heart. I had a really hard time accepting this at first, but now I embraceit as an honor. What a privilege to be chosen by the Father as someone worthy enough to hear the secrets of His heart.
He hasn't said specific things about what is coming this year.
However, He has said specific things about how I am to step into this year.
And I feel like this isn't just for me....it's also for YOU.
It all centers around TRUST.
What is trust?
It is a firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.
When I was a child, it was so easy to trust.
I usually didn't have to ask my parents where we were going, or how we were going to get there. I fully relied on them to get me to my destination, and to get me there safely.
I never thought twice about, if I would go hungry, the next time I sat down at the table. I was fully confident my parents would always provide for me.
I never worried about what was next....I just lived.
The Lord is asking us...to be like children again.
Love.
Laugh.
Live.
And let NOT your heart be troubled about what is to come...He WILL help us.
"I stand between the years. The Light of My Presence is flung
across the year to come - the radiance of the Sun of Righteousness. Backward,
over the past year, is My Shadow thrown, hiding trouble and sorry and
disappointment."
I pray that we will remember that this year is a GIFT. May we treat is as so, by loving more than we loved last year, and by being thankful for each day of life. May we remain as little children, and trust in a Heavenly Dad, who loves us more than we could ever fathom. HE WILL NOT LET US FALL.
Loving God, Help us remember the birth of Jesus,
that we may share in the song of the angels,
the gladness of the shepherds,
and worship of the wise men.
Close the door of hate
and open the door of love all over the world.
Let kindness come with every gift and good desires with every greeting.
Deliver us from evil by the blessing which Christ brings,
and teach us to be merry with clear hearts.
May the Christmas morning make us happy to be thy children,
and Christmas evening bring us to our beds with grateful thoughts,
forgiving and forgiven, for Jesus' sake.
Amen.
Robert Louis Stevenson
Merry Christmas...Many blessings over you this season : )
Check out this Christmas flash mob at the mall. I almost cried several times while watching it...it's so good!
This is the only way, I could write you this message, without Twitter cutting it short.
God was speaking to me about you. He wants you to know that you are His daughter, and He is a Father who unconditionally loves you. He will never leave you or forsake you. Even when you feel alone, He is still there with you. He sees you as a virtuous princess...full of beauty, that should be fought for by someone who is
Honorable
Trust-worthy
Noble
Has a heart of gold.
You are a precious jewel..a diamond. Rare and valuable, worth more than money can buy.
I pray that today, you feel overwhelmed by the love of the Father, and that this truth about how He sees you, makes a permanent mark on your heart.